My younger brother Rafael met the Messenger, Elizabeth Clare Prophet, many years ago, and since that moment, he was in the quest to recruit me for the Teachings of the Ascended Masters.  Somehow, at deep levels I knew that once I accepted my life would change and I would have to drop certain things that I was doing that I was not able to do any more, like drinking a glass of wine, or listening to Jazz.  I was not ready, but he was determinant to convince me that I must become a member of the Fraternity.

There are two very important factors in this story, determination, and persuasion. At the time, my brother used to travel back and forth from Norway to the USA with his then wife, so in this trip, he was unable to convince me, even though he was determinant.  I am sure he prayed and prayed that the miracle of his sister joining the Teachings would happen.

So, his determination paid off on a gloomy day of September. One day, I realized that my life was not as I intended to be, that I was making wrong decisions that seemed to be good but then by the results, I could realize that they were not the correct ones and that life was placing me against the wall to make a decision on the path I was going to take- so it seems as if his praying was providing good results.

I opened one of the drawers of my night table in my bedroom, and I found a cassette tape that has the “I love you Waltz from Saint Germain”- I played it and with tears in my eyes I realized that the choice was made and that I was not going to fight any more but surrender, I absolutely surrendered for what my Father had determined thousands of years ago.  There are two statements that my brother told me: “I know you are one of us” and the other one was: “Remember, what comes from God, returns to God” and when I heard that I understood that my return to God would happen in 1,000 year, in one year or in one day but it was going to happen no matter how much I postponed it or how much I tried to avoid it. So, the logical answer for myself was: “why to wait”.

So, determination and persuasion were two of the biggest factors in my spiritual journey turning back to God, like those airplanes when are ready to take off and start turning towards the right lane to pick up speed and depart. I departed towards that precious destiny many years ago, and the journey is not over yet, it has been pleasant at times, very busy, I had met many people, I had my own challenges not being good enough to do things that I wanted to do, having to wait, having to surrender, continue serving and serving and serving and serving, yes, Mother has told us: “one of the reasons we are here is to serve..” – On Friday evenings, when you feel that your physical body cannot longer continue but once must pick up and stand in the line of fire at the Court of King Arthur as a support decree leader, or when we have to get up early in a cold morning to meet the Masters at the Court of King Arthur to support as a decree leader again, or to avoid doing “fun” things on a Saturday night to fill a post of a decree leader at the Court of King Arthur again, or faithfully attending El Morya Service, Jesus the Vigil, the Ascension Service and the Saint Germain Service or perhaps missing them in one week but retaking them then next week. This is the path of Chelaship, but I would not change all of those experiences for nothing on this world, they had formed me, made me stronger, wiser, perceptive, they had given me clarity in my own world and on the world, direction, purpose and the sense that I belong to something greater than life and the understanding that we are positioning ourselves on the right lane ready to depart to greatness.

Today, as a Minister Servant of the White Brotherhood, I am in odd, there is more responsibility, more work, more efforts but again in such way we continue being molded by fire again to become our highest potential, so the word sacrifice vanished from our dictionary, we know there is not such a thing as sacrifice, it is all good and we just continue serving.

I do wish for you to find your right lane and prepare yourself to depart to your greatness, which is the greatness of your Mighty I AM Presence to fulfill your fiery destiny and your Ascension in the Light. The purpose to share personal feelings as a KOF is that you can understand that we all are going through phases in our lives but that there is an alternative, there is an EXIT right in front of us that no matter how hard it may look, we know for sure it will propel us to our final goal.

Always Victory!
Rev. Carmen Bocanegra Perez